I have changed.

Some things are good, some not quite so.
I only remember the latter.

Like how I used to read books everyday,
but now I watch TV series daily.
How I used to reflect on world issues with friends.
Whereas now I only care about myself.
I also wanted to help those in need,
but now all I can think of is leaving this place.

I can no longer claim to be an "intellectual",
but a product on your shelves:
a replaceable being
who will not contribute
to important things
or anything at all.

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It's hard to focus, now.
I can't remember the last paragraph
because I'm keeping busy
with "work" and "exercise" and "digestive" issues.

So I can only wish
for the day when
I'll grab a book,
turn over a page
and lose myself again.